Dinosaur Eggs and The Different Day

It’s been a long, hellish few months. I think I knew,intellectually, that medicine can change who you are. I sat through ONE FLEW OVER THE CUCKOO’S NEST enough times to know that Nurse Ratched dealt in drugs of control, not healing. I guess I just never thought it would happen to me, nor mine. And…

So Much Color

I have a long history of being in love with makeup. When I turned old enough to wear make up (somewhere around 14) my mother let my Aunt who was some sort of fancy director with Mary Kay go to town on me with skin care and make up. I became a bit of a…

Mouth Freeze

I have heard tales of people camping in ice caves. They intentionally go into places of ice and snow and then either carve out ice caves, or stay in caves created by nature. They willfully go out there and make it their bitch. Our ancestors who walked across the Bering Straight and battled woolly mammoths…

The Scent of a Mother

The other night at bed time I sent a grumpy little girl on to bed while I finished up the tooth brushing, the kisses and clean up for bed that the boys needed. I promised her I would be in shortly for kisses, and usually when that happens I will find her sound asleep in…

Interstate Love Song

Promises of what seemed to be Only watched the time go by I am singing along to the late, great Scott Weiland and STP as I fly up I85 headed north. I’ve been called once again to come get my errant child, my boy who cannot control his rage nor his hands. I’m singing loudly,…

I Have Other Children

I have had a great deal of guilt lately that I haven’t been as attentive to numbers 1,2 and 4 lately because 3 has been so very needy. I suppose that is part of the deal, the one who needs the most/demands the most is the one who GETS the most but it’s also wildly…

And Then We Could Breathe…

Today was the day – THE DAY we went to see a new neurologist. I’d felt good about this one based on how his nurse spoke of him. She told me how amazing he was with children, how kind he was. She told me that if it was her child – HE was the doctor she’d…

Days of Nothing

We have settled in to a strange situation. Calm. We had gone for, oh  months now in the opposite to such a degree that I barely know what to do with myself. But here we are. I have my second glass of wine beside me and I’m not physically fighting anyone to keep them away…

Regret Belongs to the Past

When I was about 18 months old my parents moved to Indianapolis from Terre Haute. My dad had graduated from college and they rented a townhouse to live in as he began his career as an educator. I was sent to stay with my grandparents over the long weekend so my parents and their friends…

Just The Normal Chaos

I realize that some people have been quite worried about our stress level around here, and I appreciate all of the concern. I would be lying if I said there wasn’t any reason to worry – it’s been very worrisome, frankly. Facing the possibility that your sweet loving child has turned into some sort of…